as the dust settles

2 August, 2007

i am 3000 miles away from everyone i know and love. my roommate is out of town. school doesn’t begin for two weeks. i don’t know how to meet people in the meantime.

i had a dream tonight that i was sitting in a grocery store. my dad was behind a display, and i kept asking him questions but he couldn’t hear me talking. eventually he started to walk around the display and as he came closer i flinched slightly.

he said, “what’s wrong?”

i said, “i don’t know. i didn’t know what you were doing.”

he said, “oh. i just wanted to hug you before you left.”

we hugged and i said, “it’s a matter of days, not even weeks, until i’m gone.” then i was sad.

i woke up and found i was still sad.

[welcome to miami.]
-brian.b