if you ever really watch…

indiana jones and the temple of doom, you’ll realize how horrible a movie it is. and, consequently, why the second star wars trilogy was – as it was – a waste of time.

if you think things are bad now, prepare to be amazyed by how misogynistic, colonialist, and racist cinema could be twenty years ago.

[oh, indy!]
-brian.b

cough up green

i officially made it to sunday night without doing any schoolwork. i’m not proud of this; i was just sick this weekend and couldn’t muster the wherewithal to read.

anyway, it feels like it’s gonna be one bitch of a week.

[so, here's to that.]
-brian.b

ps: i quit smoking. i had my last cigarette nearly a month ago. it has been surprisingly easy not to smoke, even in the midst of high-pressure situations.

the echo of connection

i still watch the show we would stay up late to watch together, even in different states. melissa’s voice still reminds me of yours, and when i hear it, i miss you a hell of a lot more than i want to.

[why did you walk?]
-brian.b

[sigh]

Had a talk with my old man
Said “help me understand”
He said “turn sixty-eight
You renegotiate”

“Don’t stop this train
Don’t for a minute change the place you’re in
And don’t think I couldn’t ever understand
I tried my hand
John, honestly we’ll never stop this train”

Once in awhile, when it’s good
It’ll feel like it should
And they’re all still around
And you’re still safe and sound
And you don’t miss a thing
Till you cry when you’re driving away in the dark

random facts about me:

1. i have a shiny red bump on my chest that looks like the beginnings of a third nipple. it’s been there for ten years. this once time in tenth grade, though, it grew a little spire out of the middle that was black. the spire fell off on its own and the bump hasn’t done anything like that since. it’s called a papilloma, by the way, but no, i don’t have hpv.

2. i like this photo a lot.

3. my dad – the first relative (not counting nick) to visit me in florida – will be here in 14 hours. !

4. i miss miss home.

5. my roommate now has halo 3. i want so very badly to play it but… grad school… maturity… girls? no. grad school! maturity!

6. speaking of grad school: i am at a writer’s block on a paper due in fifteen hours. it’s almost done, but… somehow it’s just not coming together near the end. man i suck at being done with this paper.

7. 70% of all stress is caused by people not being relaxed anymore.

8. i just spilled beer in my pants cuz it doesn’t know how to stay in the bottle.

[live and learn?]
-b-r—-i-a-n.b

updates on the general.

1. feast those eyes:

2. i turned in my first graduate seminar paper today. it was entitled:
3. everybody should check out the new tuesday weld. 1 2 . . .  8 parts jazz + 2 parts electronic * 1.5 parts pop = a real tuesday weld.
4. i miss home.
5. some of home is coming soon: my dad flies out on friday. psyched? yes!
6. if you’re wondering about the choppy sentences – i have half a tank of eloquence left that i need to save for my next paper. due friday.

[cries but happily!]
-brian…..b